Purpose/Jer 29:11
Since Feb, I have been working on The Purpose Driven Life. I have not obviously been reading it straight through. I might have found a cause.
I also believe that the time is coming where I have to do something with all the poetry I wrote. Now if only I can find a job that paid well. Here is the thing I am thinking about going to Grad School maybe.
Before I leave you, I will close with an instrumental and applicable Bible Verse that has spoke to me the past month especially when I read it earlier this week and then a friend prayed it over me last night. It is interesting how curiosity may have paid off this time, compared to what happened around this time.
Anyway, here is a verse that has spoken to me w/i the last month.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jer 29:11
Embarrassing
I am listening to this CD on the study of Song of Solomon. It is rather embarrassing. I think I am turning into a tomato. Anyway, I do desire a husband. I guess it does not hurt to listen to this explicit preaching.
Dyspraxia
I spend too much time on the web. I however was happy to discover I am definately not alone. Here I have joined a support group, because I discovered there were others who have experienced similar difficulties in life. I hope things turn around. Since I was little my handwriting has been horrible. Doing crafts and stuff like that is a torture chamber. I could not clean more than a few places a day, even then I will drive people crazy. I don't know why I was given this since it is annoying. I have a college degree. I went through VBR which was a joke. Anyway I had some social things I have had to overcome. God gave me opportunities in college and throughout my 20s to overcome a lot of things in that area
In hs, I hid behind the books since I discovered if I studied I could do well. I made honors society. Throughout life, I know I have had a impairment in my speech. People have assumed I was dumb. I went to therapy, but it only helped to a point. There have been so many obstacles that I have been constantly dealing with throughout life. One thing that I wish I had was more strength like everyone else.
It was a breath of fresh air to discover there are other people who do not do well with planning. I however hope things turn around soon. I live in a sorry town when it comes to public transportation.
Anyway, I hope you don't mind me jotting down the trials I have faced. I will tell you that I love working with people and writing poetry.
Internet
The Internet can be good and bad. It is nice to listen to music. Nice to gain beneficial information. It is more than an avenue for a game.
Waiting
I am listening to 106.3 the Gospel station. And there is one song I am presently listening to about how God's delay is a not denial. I guess I will have to continue to wait. Hopefully I don't have to wait too long.
Direction/Paycheck/Suggestions
Hello
I think I feel God telling me to consider writing. Writing is iffy though. I have wrote so many poems. I need a paycheck immediately. But I would look something I can stand. I interviewed at one place today. I really need work very very soon. Anyway pray I have good news by Independence Day.
My parents have started buying into that friggin Dave Ramsey. Some things he says are worthwhile. Then there are way over the top fiscally conservative things he says. I know I am in a lot of school debt. I haved toyed with the idea of going back to school. I however don't hear God telling me to go to Grad School to get a degree in Journalism, Special ED, or Social Work. The only way I would want to even teach is if I could do more one on one tutoring since I hate making lesson plans. I discovered what a pain it could be on my missions trip.
Now if only I can make something of myself with my writing. Any suggestion? Anyway pray I get something by the end of the week.
Missions
The past two days I have read The Mix and another magazine, which is put out by a Conservative Baptist Organization. It was exciting to hear how God is getting the truth out even in those places such as the 10/40 window, which include many restrictive areas. I was quite impressed with the forward report in Pastor Rich's Congregational's email.
It was exciting to hear what God was doing all over the world, including East Asia in The Message I do have one problem with The Message. It was the fact that they used charismatic error, instead of just saying with doctrines they don't necessary agree with. At least they acknowledged that charismatics are believers. I could even agree with them that these believers need to be grounded in the Bible and theology. However I did not appreciate that remark.
Good steady work and Man of My Dreams
There are two things I really desire, steady income and a wonderful man. I don't want a player. I want someone who will be with me in thick and lovely. Will Straight up love me forever and be willing to go to the altar and live happily ever after. HE MUST TRULY LOVE JESUS.
