Moshpit Marsha
Friday, May 26, 2006
What Do I Have To Lose
I am going to start submitting my poetry and go out for a crazy job in addition to what I usually do. What the heck?What do I have to lose?
Anyway I spent 3 to 4 hrs with the Lord. It helped relieve me some.
Monday, May 22, 2006
Major Concern
It is not like I have not been doing anything.I have been doing quite a bit. I want to get out of retail. I have a friggin college degree. I am trying to get out. I might be better off from the face of the earth.
Yellow Wallpaper/Why am I here?
One of my favorite stories I read back in college was The Yellow Wallpaper. I reread it 2 years ago. It is one of my favorite stories because I can relate to the Charlotte Perkins Gillman's main character.I know my dad meant well, but if anything it did the opposite. That is forgiveable, but the bs my brother gave me I am rather upset about. I hate where my life is right now. I AM A SCREW UP! Why am I here?
I hope this is the year things really turn around. One part of me tells me things are going to turn around, yet I don't see it. That part wonders why I am here. Perhaps I will call one of my friends. I don't want to die, but I might be better off not around.
Is there a novicane for what I am experiencing.
At least I have a job and I want to trust God will come through. At least I have more of a direction in that I know I am supposed to work 2 jobs, perhaps on my way home I will stop at the Northern Lights Library to look into publishing my poetry especially Dance and Dance of Chance.