The whole cyberspace thing
I do not write fiction and don't have time to read it. I have attempted to write it, but I don't the patience.
Anyway, I think of some of the stuff I read years ago about how a lot of stuff was done of computer. I have probably seen quite a few movies like this.
Last year some of my life turned into a nightmare because of what went on online. I must give "Marvin" credit where credit is due. Marvin and I spent a lot of time online late at night from May to July. The one thing good is the fact this situation innoculated me from a lot worse things than he has or would have done. My reputation might have been tarnished with some because of this mess. I met someone who I have not met in reality, who really could do a lot more damage than Marvin has done. There are things that have revealed he is up to no good.
Months later, there is a total misunderstanding. In this day in age fiction just seems to come to life. There is a guy in my Psalm 45:1 group who believes he is living fiction. There might be truth about my life being fiction as well.
Guilt
I feel guilty about doing what I did to Brianna. I hope Brianna does not get distracted as a result. I pray that Brianna succeeds within the next few weeks. Maybe I should talk to Brianna. However I know that her maturity is that of Marvin's. Marvin has issues. Brianna is another story.
Marvin is truly my least favorite person for all that he did. He lead me on and then acted like a bad ass when he quit emailing me. I would just assume avoid Marvin. Hopefully I can continue succeeding on that one. I know I should not say this about someone who I hope is brother in Christ, since he is a member of VCC however he is a low life sleezeball or as Mr. Weisner my ninth grade science and algebra teacher a certified dirtball.
blog reading/ new situation
Its fun to read other people blogs even the ones that really get your goat. For you know they are talking about you. I anonymously made up a character combined of my three closest friends which was not the honest thing. However this individual had no business posting gossip and crossing the line. I would not have even given "Marvin" the time or day had we not spent so much time online with me and had he not led me on as he did. I thought he liked me because we spent so much time not to mention he did lead me on. There were a few nights we spent over 3 hours emailing each other and then we would talk occasionally on the phone. He then accuses of being obsessed with him when his attentions toward confused me. If men are reading this, do not be an egghead like Marvin is.
Hopefully "Marvin's"' buddy Sheila who might be older than Marvin and definately older than Brianna is more in tune with this crazy mess for she heard a conversation between Marvin and I during the time we were really into emaiing each other. Sheila knew this was going on. She knew when Marvin and I stayed up after I went to Red White and Boom to talk. I was so tired. I remember going to a party where there were alcoholic beverages, however I chose not to drink wine for I was so tired from staying up till 3 talking to Marvin online. I recall finding the Mountain Dew and things like that just to keep me awake. I should have seen clues about Marvin that weekend in our emails, that he was just a player. I was just a target to play this game. In all honesty, I am more verbose than he is.
Hopefully Marvin heard the message from Pastor Rich on Life As It Was Meant To Be. One point he brought up was how church ought to be safe. Hopefully the message on Life As It Was Meant To be got Marvin thinking.
Maybe I will be brave enough to talk to Brianna about this situation, even if we prefer not to talk to each other. What she did crossed the line. My friend Becka thought she crossed the line with posting.
I might have possibly got myself in a worse situation with this new guy for he wanted me to do him a favor. I agreed even though I might find a way to get out somehow that won't drive him crazy. Maybe his mother is sick. However I told a friend who has been scammed by similar stuff and it does not sound promising.
Oh I will just have to wait and see. I love technology however all this activity at times can cause trouble if you are not careful.
Lately
The season is over. The days are often cloudy despite the very mild weather. Yesterday was nice.
Anyway, I met someone online who I can't determine if he is real or a scam. I have a feeling he is a scam. I hope I am wrong.
