Guinness/Shamrock Shakes
I don't like the stuff, however Guinness has sounded good todayfor whatever reason.
The mint shamrock shake sounded better. Too bad the stupid McDonalds ran out of it. I don't know what is going on why I could not get one of those shakes this yr. Doesn't McDonalds realize that these shakes are in demand among their customers?
Today
Today was St. Patrick's day I wore a long sleeve green shirt and a khaki green vest with a green armband that said Happy St. Paddy's Day.
My mom made the Hoggys Recipe mac and cheese, which was wonderful. In addition we had greens. Sounds like soul food that would meet Lent Criteria. The greens just had seasoning, no bacon or whatever.
My family has never been Catholic. I however could not help but joke about expressing solidarity with the Catholics since we had a meatless meal. Perhaps we were making up for some Irish Catholics who had to have their corned beef and cabbage in honor of St. Paddy's day.
Imperfections
It has dawned on me that there are generational sins. Worry and anxiety are the two I struggle from the most.
My dad and I drive each other crazy. Today, I wanted to die or something. My dad easily gets pissed with me for whatever. I will tell you it is not easy being broke. If I had money, I would not be in this thing that can be Hell at times. I like The Yellow Wallpaper because I am as trapped as that character.
I love my dad, but we drive each other crazy. Today was one of those days of Hell, in which we pissed each off, not intentionally.
I must say this issue runs generationally. My poor Aunt is divorcing her husband of many yrs. I wondered if she married him, since she and grandpa did not get along. Perhaps that is why I have went as far as to respond to any attention from men in the past.
Why must life be such a living Hell at times?
Wonders
Is this the year things will turn around for the better? Will I get married.
There is one guy who might be interested in me, I hope not because after talking he does not seem to be near me at all wavelength wise. Nice guy, however it would not work.
I am looking for someone who could relate with me on a similar intelligence wavelength. He seems like he might be perfect for a friend of mine who is late 30s, since after talking to him, he might be perfect for my friend Anne. Anne goes to a different church. They both have similar wavelengths, however not a good match.
Am I supposed to be trapped?
Why the hell do people have major frikken issues with meeting people online. If I had money, I would go back to eharmony in a heartbeat. BC is not as good as eharmony. L and S, had too many weird elements.
I really want to get married. I hope God will bring someone soon in my life somehow.
Will it be okay moneywise or will I have to go through Hell for a time as I have?
I want to trust God, however what if God is practical as is the Hollingsworth thing to do. What if he does not think outside the box.
I know he does. Why am I surrounded by so much negativity.
On another note, I got a job. Could you pray that this works out, since I need the money and that God will allow me to keep my retail job to be safe.
